I just need to get away from you for awhile

I spent days trying to convince myself not to call you

It's all a trick

I loved you so much
But not enough to know how to be happy

I'm so afraid that the lazy words of I love you stripped from my tongue
Are not enough to keep the blade from your skin

You're still looking for the words to save you
No matter how fake they rasp off my tongue

Like and Other Four Letter Words

Love. And fuck, both roar and bare. Mind. Body. MINE. Fate. Feel. Deep, as in, side. Jump at your whim. Mate. Date. Pain, the good kind. Bend over knee. Take, home. Live. Pair. Rain with bows and move of the ment. Fast beat, slow burn. Want. Need. Bite. Hard. Hand in Hand. Jail plus bait. Sins. The fall. Long time to come, Keep. Beat that.

I stayed a long time, waiting for you to come back around for me
I gave up the things I once used to describe myself
I forgot what I was hoping for
And you showed up again like not a day had passed since you left me stranded
And I realized you never had plans to return again
I guess there was a pleasure I developed in thinking you were suffering with me
More then I actually cared that you were gone

If only you could see how many times you still show up in my life to this day and I'd beg you to leave if I thought you still listened.