It feels pathetic sometimes
All the time
Is that how it's supposed to be?

A promise in silence

The truth in lies

Dreams while awake

Those are the kind of things that seem useless

Until they are all that matter

I'm happier now then I've ever been, I'm just scared time is going to mess that up

When you figure out the question the answer is yes

The sounds you make on my lips 

The taste you leave on my tongue 

You vibrate through me

And it's not enough to say that you entrance me

But it will do for now

3 doesn't divide into 1
That one seems to matter most
Did you really give up
And I know the answers really aren't that important
They don't change anything
And really I'm looking for the answers I want
Not the truth
But everything you told me doesn't seem real
Or maybe not fair is what I mean
Nobody is looking to care though
Don't look at the time on the clock

I'm losing my words

Out of everything I've always had them

Who am I when they are gone?

People always tell me how smart I am

How I have something special 

How I'm meant for more

How I can do anything

All I can think is how much I have these people fooled

Do you know how to talk to angels like she does?
Would you believe if they told you why?
They're telling me things I'm scared to hope for
Do I hope even through the pain?
You tell me
Please
Because I've always believed in you more then I should

I've awaken from every dream I've ever lived

There's a world you live in

It's nowhere near mine
And my mother taught me so much
But she left out how to say goodbye

There was a time I could taste your voice
Tell me how does one get over that

I know the moments when she crosses your mind
It's a deep breath and eyes to the left kind of feel
And she's everything you wanted but you never touched her
Not in any way that matters
Train tracks and butterflies
They're always running away with you

I've been chasing the things I can't feel for as long as I can remember

I've been running from things I can't see for just as long

I have 20/20 vision but I can't look too far into the future 

Or reflect that far into the past

I feel like I have shards of glass in my bones

Always slicing to get out

There's a lull in my heart

And my motivation shows up at the strangest times

Don't think, don't think 

Everything works better when I don't need to think up reasons why

Things I already know answers to

Remember that time we decided to take a week break from each other
And before the week was up you text me saying you missed me
I never understood why you did that when our feelings weren't the same
This is one of those things I never asked you, didn't know how to ask, was afraid to ask

Things don't always happen in the time frame we want them to

That doesn't mean they aren't meant to happen

This doesn't mean it won't happen

There isn't anyway to tell you how proud I am of you

How even when you still think you don't deserve happiness

I know you're one of those people that deserve it more then most

I met you and I knew you were meant for something grand

I only knew you for that moment and it was enough

There is every part of me that believes in you

Go change the world