There's still this girl

Superwoman you make me fly with my feet on the ground

...

Dear Blog,

I am going to sin tonight. Forgive me...

And be prepared for details.

Yours Truly,

 alliknow

... 3 years ago

And see I never saw it that way
Through your eyes I must have never been alive
How could I, when you just let me go, walking away
Not a tear to let me know
That maybe you once cared
But I never saw it that way
Not your way
How could I, How could I, How could I
It was always more to me
Then you'd ever let it be
You tried to (hide/disguise) what you felt
But you completely failed
They never saw it that way
How could they when you let it show in every move you made
It's never something we can hide
No matter how you try
But I never saw it that way
But you tried
Take what you can
There's nothing left to give
It's different now because of what once was
Love doesn't need approval from anyone
But you never saw it that way
No you never saw it at all
Girl that's not the way
Please know
I will never see it that way

A

How many people can you love in a lifetime?

Sometimes we look for signs for things we already know aren't meant to be;

to somehow prove that we are wrong;

so we can still hope for that one thing we want

I never wanted this to be the way that you see me

It’s about the time it takes to find your truths and knowing the intermittent between now and then is not wasted or at least that’s what we tell ourselves to sleep through the night.

About the places inside we desperately want to hide but the hope that someone some day will care enough to find them anyway… and chose to stay

About the person you think you should be, the person you want to be and who you are now and the constant struggle to be all three.

About finding love and knowing love and the difference between when to let go and when to hold on with everything you are… and forgiving yourself for second guessing.

About the changes that will come and the peace in knowing it always will.

It’s about life and how we chose to live it

(this is the most genertic shit I have written in awhile)

I swear I'm not crazy I just think that you're beautiful

The beauty of words enthrall my soul

But you will never find my heart through any of them

To easily manipulated

Simple truth buried alive under illusion

Find the things I say with silent lips and unmoving pen

That's where you'll find the beat in me

Just one thing that stays mine

You don't get it
I want to be wanted back
I need to be wanted back
Fuck
I'd move in a second to be with you
But you don't want that
You don't want anything I have to give
And maybe I love her differntly then I love you
(I loved you, I thought I always would)
But I can't always be waiting for the day that you will finally figure it all out
You always told me not to wait for you
But I was
You knew I was
That's just settling now
And I have to remember the promise to myself
Not to settle
Not to wake up years from now unhappy because I didn't think I deserved more
The timing was always off with us
And almost can't be the only thing I ever have
I ache to belong to somebody and have them belong to me
That someone isn't you
Please don't say the words now
Not when you will never do anything about them

The sound of letting go

(I hate that you gave it to her)

It’s so far away now
That someday we pretend can happen
When I hear your voice it’s easier to believe
But I can get so lost in the missing pieces
I don’t know how to finish another day
When I’m barely keeping these demons at bay
And I don’t know how to ask you to stay when I’m still stuck in yesterday
The things that stand tall crumble with pressure
How can I hold this up with unknown promises I can only hope are true

There's this girl...

The sky is raining in all the places I want to be. I'm certian this means we can somehow make them the same place so I can hold your hand as we find all the puddles along the way.