Breaking away from all you've known

I've always know it's not only you I'm hanging onto
It's the pieces of you I'm too afraid to see in myself
And I let you take from my soul the things you need
Because I don't know how to direct it on myself
And there is a strength in me that acts as a shield for others
I'm struggling with taking this source away from you
Will you be okay without it
I don't even think you know it's from me
And I would protect you if I could
But you have made it clear that's not my place
And I feel like that is your way of protecting me back
That you don't want this to be a burden of responsibility on me
And maybe now is the time I need to accept that from you

There is past lives between you and me
I don't know if you remember the time we talked about that
About the other lifetimes we have met
And maybe in one of those we were meant to be
But that's not how it is
Because in all our lives we are draw to each other
But in every one we destroy what there is
We survive by sucking the other dry
And you walked away this time
Which I have always felt makes you stronger then you will ever admit
So maybe for us I should help break the circle we've been running around in

And I'm scared and sad by this
I know once it happens
Once I release this and we rotate into different orbits
That is all there is for us
And I hate that it is what's best
I still feel you in me
Even when you have already left
But you've always known we aren't good for each other
So it's my turn to know it too

So I'm turning in all my 11:11s and every mention of your name
The place where you live physically and in my heart are being packed up
I have attempted it before but now is the time
And I will have to remember again tomorrow but I'm leaving plenty of notes
I wish every good thing in this world for you pretty girl
And with that I have let go