Your words can't hold me together anymore

I can't tell what you want from this

I doubt that even you can

There's no going back to before

and I still fantasize about futures but I don't believe anymore

There's effort in place now

I'm biting down on those words like I haven't said them a thousand times

I need them to mean something to someone

I've told them all

But none have honestly said it back

I'm deflecting for you

Hanging on to my facade 

But I'm still shattering into pieces

Crumbling into sand