I can't do this alone. I can't carry all of this for us. I know that's fucked to say but I need you to show me you want this. That you want this bad enough to fight this out with me. I know you have the brunt of all this. You deal with it on the home front. But if I do something big. If I take steps to make this work for us I'm risking a whole lot more then just this relationship. And I'll do that if that's what it takes but I need to know you can look at this from my perspective. That you are willing to risk actually talking this out with people and not shutting down when tough questions come up. That you can be honest with people. With us. That's what scares me- I know we can make this work even if there is some time involved and a lot of hard work, but not if you lie or hold things back that need to be said. This is the difference between words and action. Please don't give up now. Even if at the very worst we are in for a long wait please don't give up on us.
I hate not talking to you. I hate looking at my phone like it's going to ring and somehow let me hear your voice. I hate not knowing what you're feeling and if you are okay. I hate being in this helpless place. I hate not seeing your beautiful face. I hate every fucking thing keeping us apart. But really I just miss you. I love you my
Superwoman.
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