Second person feels detached

The taste was different then you thought

So was the smell

The color was slightly off too but it was close enough

And the words are memorized but there's a buzz overlapping them

You think for a moment 'shouldn't I be more excited?'

But then it's over and the question is dated

You can still feel the  heat on your skin

There are times I think that lifetime will never come, but then I realize our time is now

I don't feel like I'm waiting when it comes to you

We are how we are and it's beautiful

And I know things will change and I look forward to all of it

But there's more here now with us then too many people get to see in a lifetime

We aren't doing this because we have too

We do it because it's the only thing that makes sense

You are my faith

A bowtie and hat, the suspenders are for you

#89

Letting you dress me because we both know I have no style sense

(Yes I'll carry the bags)

Those Days

Wake up without the need for an alarm, refreshed from deep sleep

Your hair falls into place easily with just a comb of your fingers, you look in the mirror and like what you see for the first time in months

There's a hint of a smile taking control of your lips and there's not an overpowering reason why it's just there

The sun is shinning, a to do list to complete but nothing pressing, meeting up with a few old friends

Your girl calls just to say she loves you

And you remember there's been bad days before and you know there are bad days to come

But today is easy, peaceful, just enough of a break to remind you (it's not endless/the struggle isn't everything)

Today I don't feel hopeless

It's nice

Thanks for the help

Bones

It burst through your bones

Snapping and cracking the solid frame built from years of growth

Grinding to dust every fortified rib and femur

The marrow (leaking/draining) out through every pore

That thick skin you wear so brazenly protects you mightily from outside invasions

But that's been built around your osteopathic soul

They're already inside



Oh look, a simile

I want you like a jellyfish needs water

That was new

It was a different tone

(I love knowing you well enough that I can detect it)

I knew what it was but I didn't want to call you on it if you didn't recognize it

You did

I didn't mean to cause it

It just came out

I backtracked but a little slower then real retreat

I wanted to know if I was right

I pushed

Kept saying things to encourage it

I'm sorry I'm needy enough to require demonstrations

I know it wasn't about you doubting me

But how you felt something you wanted to give me was stripped from you

Believe me it's still there

Just for you

I think I conveyed that plainly to you

You got it

You have me

It's still another thing you said you didn't do

And it's not proving you wrong at all, but being your exception, that thrills me

What you do to me, she might as well never have said her name

That position isn't benefiting her in the slightest

You're still all I see

But I've felt it too

Jealousy