The thing is, what is hard to let go of for people like you and me, isn't that they didn't care. It's that they didn't care the way we wanted them too. They didn't show it the way we needed them too. It's never quite so clear as to how they can hurt you so bad and seem to be so untouched by it until the day you mimic them by destroying another's heart. Then something clicks, it was never about you. It was that she was so lost in despising herself at the expense of knowing how to express love.