Something New, Again

(Unproofed and I need to pick one tense but I don't feel like it tonight)


Jaiden wiped the condensation off the mirror with her hand that had gathered there from her shower. She stared at her reflection almost not recognizing what she saw, or rather the lack of what she saw. It had been quite some time since she could look herself in the eye and not see it there. The longing. The heartache. The anger.

The fear.

She took a deep breath and let it out slowly. The decision had been made and nothing was going to change that. Now it all came down to dealing with the consequences of that decision. There was an extreme peace in no longer having to struggle with what to do. she already knew and she was sure that that was what had changed what she saw in the mirror. She was trying to get used to not having to fight with herself anymore.She figured that would take some time but she was okay with that.

Wrapped in a towel Jaiden walked out of the bathroom into her bedroom. Hair hand dried and thrown into a messy ponytail because she wanted to avoid making too much noise. The early morning sun was coming through the window enough to see without having to turn on the lights. Slowly moving around the room as silently as she could to put he clothes on.

When she was done she finally let her eyes wander to her bed and absorb the figure that lay in it. Blonde hair sprawled across the pillow, a single sheet covering the naked body underneath. Long legs fully visible and Jaiden was sure that she would never get used to what seeing all that skin did to her. She never wanted to.

She couldn’t help the smile that came to her face as she walked close. She let herself just watch the beautiful girl sleep face up, body completely open and vulnerable. So trusting. Jaiden nver knew how to do that. She slept on her side curled into a ball protecting herself from anything that may come while slept. She wanted t so everything she possibly could to make sure teh sleeping girl always had that much faith in the world.

Jaiden stared down at that perfect body beneath her as she made it to the edge of the bed. Placing her knee onto the mattress she lend over to place a gentle kiss onto a cool forehead. Her intentions had been for that to be it, she had tried so hard not to wake the girl in her bed since she had gotten up, but she couldn’t resist the need to kiss soft lips as well.

Jaiden grinned as the sleeping girl immediately began kissing back. And while she should feel bad that she woke the girl she couldn’t actually bring herself to make that happen because it felt so good. Jaiden loved that that was the unconscious response she invoked in the blonde.

Finally pulling away slightly Jaiden opened her eyes to see sleepy blue looking back at her. “Hey.” breathed past her lips as she brought her hand to move some stray blonde hair behind an ear. “I need to go. I have some stuff I need to do.”

Blake lifted herself up so she could rest on her elbows still keeping her eyes on the brunette. Jaiden felt the need to explain further so she hurriedly said “I just want to go think about some things. I’ll be back. I just...” Her words trailed off when she didn’t know how to explain any further.

“Okay.” Was all the now coherent Luka said like she never needed an explanation to begin with.

Jaiden scrunched her eyebrows. “Okay?” She questioned having expected more.

“You’ll be back?” Jaiden nodded yes. “Then okay.”

There was that easy trust again that left Jaiden knowing that the decision they both made last night had been right. She wasn’t leaving to question that. She wanted to go marvel in it for awhile. Find a place for it all in her head. Enjoy the peace that now replaced the conflict that had previously been within her. It was something she needed to process alone and the fact that Luka just understood it made Jaiden fall a little more.

She got a little giddy when she thought about Luka and her together. Finally they had come to a point that resisting what was between them was only creating pain. Pain for them, pain for Jake, and pain for all their friends who were all watching the two girls fight so hard to break their own hearts. It seemed impossible for them to be together for the longest time.But she supposed sometimes it was okay to get the impossible.

A smile spread across Jaiden’s face ad she wondered at how many times Luka had made her do that just in that single morning. She moved to kiss Luka again because there was nothing else to be said.

She moaned a little as Luka lifted one of her hands to the back of Jadien’s head in order to deepen the kiss. Eventually she pulled away again and Luka let her go reluctantly.

As Jaiden stood up she noticed the sheet had fallen to reveal a naked torso and her eyes froze on the naked flesh. An exaggerated clearing of a throat brought her out of it. Looking back up to Luka’s face she saw an amused smirk and blushed a bit but returned the smirk just same. Without a word but without breaking eye contact either Jaiden got off the bed and backed away to the door.

“I’ll be back.”

Grabbing a coat she stood there until Luka blew her a kiss.

Oh she was definitely coming back.