Late night thoughts

As fucked up as everything is

How fucked up I've made it

Your added contributions to that

How extremely despairing our situation is and will remain

You are still the girl that gives meaning to my heart, captivates all my senses

You are my proof everyday

And after all this time I still smile every time I think about you

Every time I think about us

So I'd like to know...

I can't tell if it's me trying to get out or if it's something trying to get out of me.

Memories are real

There's a reason we can't go back
So we don't get lost to all that could have been
It's not a flaw in the design
It's the built in warning
That we can remember our past

To change our future

A retelling

The things you know are coming because you can't take your eyes away
And the things that take you by surprise because you didn't know where to look

I think of people as times of day

Forgive my moments of weakness

They're not about getting away

But trying to find something tangible to hang onto

Sometimes I feel like we found this too soon

That fate tangled our strings

That we were meant to meet much later then this

How can you be shown your heart and have it beat so far away

Road maps and distance don't seem that hard

'let's run away together'

I just want to be where you are tonight

Dreams are all I have of you

And it's bittersweet because I fall asleep to find you every night

But morning is the worst part

And no matter how I try to push it back it always comes

Every time I have to remember you're not there

Frozen tears burning scars down my cheek

I feel your phantom touch within everything I do

It's carving patterns of ache into my chest