If only you could see how many times you still show up in my life to this day and I'd beg you to leave if I thought you still listened.

I won't become bitter

And I won't blame because there's no winner here

It's just time to move on

And that's okay

Because this did mean some thing once

You will always be my taste of the rainbow

And I'll always care

Just from a distance now

I don't think I deserve to be the one that cries anymore

It's just routine now

And I don't know how to explain that 

Sometimes I understand intimately all the directions your mind flows

Then there are the times you make no sense that I can compare to

We're not this or that

And fuck you 

But don't ever stop loving me

Please 

I need reassurances you don't know how to give

They were seeing her through my eyes of love

Didn't you know?